Paris Jackson: Life After Neverland

They said that they have a real electric chair and a real head. She mentioned that this is her ninth visit and somehow she finds it soothing. It doesn’t seem far removed from her earlier phases of goth and emo as a teenager. But it’s not uncommon for visitors to feel nauseous or faint, especially in the formaldehyde-scented horrors of the cramped maze of the death museum on Hollywood Boulevard. On a late Thursday afternoon in November, Paris is making her way through the museum. You can’t even find these online, she whispers, referring to the gruesome autopsy photos covering a wall. That’s Marilyn Monroe, famous for her corpse, staring at her from the wall. And that’s Katherine Jackson, Michael Jackson’s mother, staring at her too.

She is a very emotional person, to the point where her judgment can be clouded. Michael adds that she is very passionate, and this applies to almost all of her strengths and weaknesses, similar to Paris. The only thing that would be different is her gender and age. Basically, she is a person who my dad says is the older brother of Prince Michael Jackson. She is my father’s child, but she is also obsessed with Justin Bieber and Nirvana; she loves Butch Walker and Alice Cooper, as well as the Arctic Monkeys and Mötley Crüe. She has her sneakers decorated with lyrics from these bands. She has a free-spirited taste in music and a hippie-punk fashion sense, which is a unique combination of the 21st century. She has lived a life that has veered between being exposed and agonizingly sheltered. She can come across as much younger or older depending on the moment, and last April, Jackson Paris turned 18.

Paris has acquired more than 50 tattoos at an impressive speed, sneaking them in the first few years while she was underage and devoted to her younger brother, Prince, and their late father, Michael Jackson, who died when she was 11 years old. They are now living in a near-cloistered, idyllic little world, always saying that time heals and that the only important thing to me is the mentality of living my life, even though nothing as bad as what happened before can nearly be as bad as what can happen going forward.

“Why not continually have reminders of happiness?” She expresses. “He has only brought me happiness,”. On her internal left wrist, the words QUEEN OF MY HEART – in her father’s penmanship, from a letter he wrote her – are engraved. The Bad emblem is on her palm and she has an illustration from the front of Dangerous on her lower arm. Close to her collarbone, she has FAITH, TRUST AND PIXIE DUST engraved. Tinker Bell is the sole daughter that Michael, who perceived himself as Peter Pan, enjoyed referring to.

Paris says, “It still smells like him.” When her nanny retrieved it for her, he had died wearing the jade-and-rope bracelet that Michael bought in Africa on her right wrist. Her boyfriend has the word CRÜE tattooed on her inner lip, along with tattoos honoring her dad’s rival, Van Halen, Prince, and David Bowie, whom she also has tattoos of.

Ten years ago, her father brought home a cuddly Labrador called Kenya, who shares an uneasy living situation with Koa, a lively pit-bull-mix puppy she recently saved. This saddens me deeply, she states. I cannot handle it. I have a strong stance when it comes to animals. “I’m not a fan of this room,” she remarks, scrunching up her nose, as she approaches a display of stuffed pets. She gazes unwaveringly into the eyes of each exhibit in the museum.

She insisted on attending a residential therapy program, recalling that the hospital had a “three-strike” rule. She had already attempted suicide multiple times, which she now finds incongruous and even laughs about. She says that her tattoos now cover the scars from her self-harming, as well as the track marks from her drug use. She had been cutting herself to conceal it from her family. She thought she was not worthy of living anymore and couldn’t do anything right. She had low self-esteem and self-hatred. She tried to kill herself at the age of 15 by taking 20 Motrin pills and slashing her wrist, while drowning in drug addiction and depression. In June 2013, she describes herself as “desensitized” even to the most graphic reminders of human mortality.

Starting in seventh grade, Paris had consented to attend a private school after being home-schooled prior to her father’s demise. She asserts that she didn’t assimilate well and began associating with the only youngsters who embraced her, “a multitude of older individuals engaging in various reckless activities.” She also states, “I was engaging in numerous activities that individuals aged 13, 14, and 15 shouldn’t partake in. I attempted to mature too rapidly, and I wasn’t particularly pleasant.” Additionally, she continues to grapple with malicious online remarks and confronted cyberbullying. She expresses, “The entire concept of freedom of speech is commendable, but I don’t believe that our Founding Fathers anticipated the existence of social media when they established all of these amendments and such.”

She has never spoken about any other distressing incident in public. According to her, a significantly older “unknown individual” sexually violated her when she was 14. “I prefer not to provide excessive information. However, it was an extremely unpleasant ordeal for me, and it was exceedingly challenging, and, back then, I didn’t confide in anyone.”

She says that she no longer takes any psych meds, even though her father prescribed her the same antidepressants she struggled with depression. I was also dealing with anxiety and depression without any help, and I was going through a lot of teenage angst. I was actually going crazy. Before she says with a small smile, “It was great for me,” she says. She spent her junior year and half of her sophomore year at a therapeutic school in Utah after her last suicide attempt.

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Embrace her additional legacy: fame, and now that she has reached the age of majority, she desires to earn her own income. The Michael Jackson Family Trust is probably valued at over $1 billion, with distributions to the children in phases, she is a beneficiary of a colossal wealth. However, she wasn’t enthusiastic about it, Paris briefly attended a community college after completing high school – a year ahead of schedule – in 2015.

Contract recording a pursuit, she’ll be sure if it isn’t but), MJ than Marling Laura, they’re more, though, promise show they and perform a couple of songs and writes, she plays a few instruments on acoustic guitar for me. In a recent meeting, Lee Daniels, a producer-director, has started talking to her about a role for his star. She is so charmed by him. She might guess that she was raised well – she has impeccable manners. While remaining chill enough to become friends with her tattooed artist pals, she can exhibit a regal poise that feels almost intimidating. She is now working as an actress and model. In the end, as the daughter of one of the most famous and charismatic men who ever lived, she had a choice.

Therapeutic, it discovers and naturally emerges, exemplifying specifically. She examines internet trolls watching her dad’s choices for plastic surgery, understanding the issues of self-esteem that Paris had for a really long time. “Since she was 12, she had self-esteem issues because of trolls dissecting her appearance online and her dad’s choices for plastic surgery,” Paris says. “But when I’m modeling and there’s a moment where I forget about my issues with self-esteem and focus on what the photographer is telling me, it feels pretty and selfish in a sense.” Paris doesn’t think she’s ugly and there are plenty of people who don’t think she’s ugly either.

Impulses heal-the-world father’s shares she, mostly but. She says she is dying. This entire planet is poor, man. I’m really scared for the Great Barrier Reef. (“Draw attention” means to seek fame and causes that she favors). She says she was born with this platform, but is it a waste? Am I going to hide it and use it to make it bigger? Or am I going to use it for more important things and make it bigger?

I wouldn’t mind if her dad told me that he’d want you to be bigger than her. But if you don’t want to be all that, I just want you to be happy.

Michael Jackson, with Prince and Paris (holding his hand) in 2003.

At the moment, Paris lives in the private studio where her dad, Michael, demoed and rebuilt the first Jackson 5’s Motown royalties in the Eighties, which was purchased by Joe Jackson in 1971 in the Encino neighborhood of L.A., With some of the Jackson family compound.

The center of each blooming flower is a cartoon face of a little girl with red cheeks. She is looking down from a window at the flowers and holding a green book titled “The Secret Life” in the corner. On the entire wall, there is a mural taking up the entire space, featuring another cartoon of Michael with a small blond boy embracing him on a hilltop with a castle in a Disney-like cartoon style. The picture is framed in the studio’s commissioned artwork outside, and traces of her father are unmistakably everywhere.

The decor chosen for Paris’ bathroom is somewhat different. There is a picture of Kurt Cobain on the wall, along with a poster of Smashing Pumpkins, stickers from The NeverEnding Story, and a laptop with Me! Against the World. There are also psychedelic paisley wall hangings and a lot of fake candles. The Rolling Stones’ vinyl records serve as wall decorations. In the kitchen, there is a platinum framed record casually sitting on the counter, inscribed by Michael Jackson to Quincy Jones (“I found it in the attic,” shrugs Paris).

Over there, Michael has set up his boyfriend Paris’ drum kit; as a surprise gift for his family, he has created a mini-museum in the adjacent garage, filled with photos from their history, where they used to dance and rehearse, with even the ceilings and walls covered.

“Her kids try to create a utopian hideaway where their eccentric dad, played by Viggo Mortensen, acts as the Fantastic Captain. Last year, he declared Paris as the world of his dreams. We were part of his world, but we didn’t really know who he truly was,” says she. Daddy was his name, but she thought it was just a stage name. “I never got to do everything as a kid,” Michael admits. “Everything from movie theaters to amusement parks, my dad had his own fantasy world with a 2,700-acre zoo. I spent my first seven years in Neverland, a life that can only be described as a mix of Paris and a nearby sushi restaurant.”

“If we were to go to the theater to see animals or a movie, would you behave badly? But whatever we choose, whether it’s going to the theater or the movies, every other weekend would be good if we were good. We had to have a good day at school every single day, and actually, we had a pretty normal life. Both of us don’t like it when we walk too close to the cars – it drives her boyfriend insane, and I don’t really enjoy it either. She remembers walking on a dark roadside near Encino compound.”

In his 2011 memoir, Jermaine called Michael his brother, who was not at fault for not being involved in raising us, as our mother provided emotional support and instilled love in us. He should be seen as an example of what fatherhood should be.

Michael gave the kids the option of going to school regularly. They declined. “We’re gonna go out for the day, in the middle of the class, because it’s cooler and we’re gonna hang out with dad. When you’re at home, we love you more than anything,” says Paris, acknowledging, “we’re really weird kids.” We’ve got Disney Channel and we don’t need friends like we were.

Before the holiday actually takes place, Katherine, a Jehovah’s Witness, defers to her beliefs and is baking four pies and gumbo for Thanksgiving at her grandma’s place in Paris. “He taught me how to make the best sweet potato pie in the world,” she says. “Her dad taught her how to cook soul food, including the best fried chicken in the world,” she adds.

Michael, who was schooled in Paris, is familiar with every conceivable music genre. “I got into Van Halen, so I got into Van Halen,” she says. “My dad worked with Slash.” “He introduced me to Debussy and Tchaikovsky, as well as Fire and Wind Earth, The Temptations, Tupac, and Run-DMC.”

She emphasized that Michael was very open-minded and raised her in a very tolerant household. According to her, she fell in love with this woman on the cover of a magazine when she was only eight years old. Instead of yelling at me, he made fun of me, acting like the most homophobic parents, saying things like, “Oh, you have a girlfriend now, huh?”

“But he was also ‘extremely bashful.’ He cursed like a sailor,” states Paris, “He did possess quite a vulgar vocabulary. Would he genuinely express it in that manner? He ruthlessly massacred the indigenous people.’ He was similar to, ‘No. He wasn’t similar to, ‘Oh, yes, powerful Columbus arrived at this territory!’ And he wasn’t similar to, ‘Oh, yes, powerful Columbus arrived at this territory!’ His topmost priority for us,” remarks Paris, “apart from adoring us, was education.”

Several men, including the actor Mark Lester who portrayed the lead character in the 1968 film Oliver!, Could be suggested as the possible biological father of Paris. Among them was Klein, her employer. According to Rowe, Paris was named after the place where she was conceived. Rowe had previously testified that they never lived together during their unconventional three-year marriage. Michael stated that Rowe wanted to give him his children “as a gift”. Paris’ mother is Debbie Rowe, a nurse whom Michael met while she was employed by his dermatologist, the late Arnold Klein. The youngest sibling, Blanket, who has darker skin, attracts less speculation. Paris and Prince are well aware of the public’s skepticism regarding their parentage.

During the singular occasion, Paris consents to discuss this matter while enjoying popcorn shrimp and a Clean Mean Salmon Roll. Regardless of the circumstances, she could assert that Michael Jackson was indeed her father, but she could also choose a simple and rational response. It appears to imply that her brother – who characterizes himself as “more impartial” than Paris – shares a similar perspective. “Whenever someone inquires about that,” Prince remarks, “I counter with the question, ‘What is the significance? How does it alter anything?’ Especially when the person is not involved in my life. It does not impact my own.” How does it influence your life?

It’s almost scary how they say they really knew me. He will never be and he will never not be. My father will always be fierce, making eye contact, she says. She believes it with utter conviction and in that moment, it is both touching and fervent. It is certain that Paris’s biological dad was Michael Jackson.

He never lied to me. I just believe what he told me because of my knowledge. I would be okay with him lying to me, like my dad. I am proud of your roots being black. Later, she adds that he would point his finger at me and look into my eyes, saying “I consider myself black.”

Paris admits, “I resemble someone from Finland in terms of my appearance – I was born with blond hair and have had light skin since then,” but most people don’t recognize me as white. “I don’t know that people consider me white, even though my mother is white and my father is black, much like the actor Wentworth Miller from TV.” She accurately notes that her eye color and complexion are similar to his – it’s far from common for mixed-race children to resemble her.”

When they got together in Paris at the age of 13, her mother started researching online after her father’s death. I knew her name was Debbie, and I said, “OK, well, what’s her name?” And he said, “Debbie.” And I asked, “What’s her name?” So my mom asked, “Do we have to have a mom?” And she said, “Or 10.” When she was a child, she realized she couldn’t give birth to a real man, Paris recalls. When I was really young, I didn’t have a relationship with Rowe at first.

“We are both extremely stubborn,” Paris recognizes similarities between herself and Rowe, who recently completed a chemotherapy treatment in her battle against breast cancer. Paris counters by mentioning her grandmother and caretakers, among others, “but when my mother entered my life, it wasn’t a typical maternal bond. It has evolved into more of an adult relationship.” (Paris’ manager declined to arrange an interview with Rowe, and Rowe did not respond to our request for a comment.) “She needed someone to fulfill the role of a mother,” says Prince, who chooses not to discuss his own relationship, or lack thereof, with Rowe. Following her treatment in Utah, Paris made the decision to reconnect with Rowe.

With an affectionate chuckle, she remarks, “In the music video ‘You Are Not Alone,’ I can perceive how he gazed at her, and he was completely infatuated.” She’s also confident that Michael adored Lisa Marie Presley, whom he separated from two years prior to Paris’ arrival. Paris is uncertain about Michael’s sentiments towards Rowe, but asserts that Rowe was “head over heels” for her father.

Paris spoke at her father’s memorial, saying, “Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine.”

“Apologies, I’m becoming emotional,” she pauses. “How can individuals be so cruel?” She begins to despise the world due to their actions towards him. “Witnessing my entire universe in agony, I began to resent the world because of their treatment towards him. And to me, he was the sole priority,” she expresses, seated at the counter of a coffee shop in New York City during mid-December, clutching a small spoon in her hand. “My father would confide in me during the nights,” Paris Jackson was approximately nine years old when she realized that a significant portion of the world didn’t perceive her father in the same way she did.

“But you also have to prepare them for the difficult world,” she responds. “You attempt to provide children with the most enjoyable childhood possible. I gently suggest that what Michael said to her on those evenings was a significant burden for a nine-year-old. “No one witnessed him being a father to them. And if they did, their entire perception of him would be completely and permanently altered,” says Paris. “Only my brothers and I experienced him reading A Light in the Attic to us at night before we went to sleep,” they could sway the world. Once again, they are convincing – if they could go from house to house discussing it. Paris and Prince have no uncertainties that their father was innocent of the numerous child-molestation accusations against him, that the man they knew was the genuine Michael.

Michael’s 2005 molestation trial concluded with an acquittal, however, it severely damaged his reputation and profoundly impacted the trajectory of his family’s lives. Determined to permanently depart from Neverland, he made the decision. Over the following four years, they embarked on a journey across the globe, devoting extended periods of time to exploring the Irish countryside, Bahrain, and Las Vegas. It was a thrilling experience, and as long as her father was present, Paris was content with wherever they called home.

He was rehearsing upstairs because we could hear stomping sounds and see dust falling from the ceiling, and we were in the living room downstairs, which meant we were going to be interrupted by school. “He looks tired,” she says. “I told him to take a nap.” We already had a house for him in Paris, but rehearsals began there and we were super excited. “We were going to live in London,” he said. “Yeah, he was kind of hyped up about it.” Paris remembers his “exhaustion,” but he was already preparing for ambitious comeback performances at London’s O2 Arena in 2009.

Paris has a lingering distaste for the Live AEG promoters, as she lost a wrongful-death suit against them, accepting the jury’s argument that AEG was responsible for her own father’s death. It is this tour behind which she describes seeing Justin Bieber on a recent tour as “scared” for him, and I looked at my ticket and thought back to how exhausted my dad was, thinking back to when I saw Live AEG.

Murray Conrad blames Dr. Paris for her father’s death, claiming that it was due to his dependency on the anesthetic drug propofol, for which he was convicted of involuntary manslaughter. She refers to him sarcastically as “the ‘doctor,'” suggesting that she has darker suspicions about her father’s death. She hints that at some point he may have wanted to kill her, saying “They’re like one day they’re gonna kill me.” Furthermore, she suggests that he would drop hints about people trying to get him out, saying “And him get to out being people about.” She also mentions his valuable music publishing catalog, worth hundreds of millions of dollars, which may have been a motive for his death.

“It was nonsense. It was a trap. All genuine enthusiasts and everyone in the family is aware of it. But all indications lead to that conclusion. It resembles a complete conspiracy theory and it sounds like nonsense, because it’s evident,” she declares. Paris firmly believes that her father was, in some way, assassinated.

“Now concerning that ability to express my thoughts, I am currently attempting to engage in the strategic game of chess. Although it is indeed a game of chess, I am certainly determined to participate in the game of chess in the correct manner. Additionally, she states with enthusiasm, ‘It is a game of chess, but I am committed to playing the game of chess in the correct manner.’ Furthermore, she adds, ‘At the very least, Paris desires justice or revenge.’ Just considering a specific response, perhaps she pauses for several seconds. However, who would have thought that Michael Jackson would be deceased?”

In 2009, on the 7th of July, during her father’s televised memorial service, a courageous young girl courageously approached the microphone. “Since the day I was born,” she expressed, “My father has been the most exceptional parent one could possibly envision, and I simply wanted to express my immense love for him.” Paris regarded Michael’s decision as “foolish” initially, but eventually comprehended that it was a precautionary measure for their safety, making an even stronger impact.

“I later realized that there would be a lot of negative comments,” Paris says, “many people doubting him and his parenting. That was the first time I publicly supported him, and I will definitely do it again in the future.” According to Prince, his younger sister demonstrated at that time that she had “greater resilience than any of us.” She was only 11 years old, but she was aware of her actions.

After her trip to the Museum of Death in Paris, Michael Snoddy and Tom Hamilton, her incredibly attractive manager with a man bun who is 31 years old, decided to head to Venice Beach. We strolled along the boardwalk and Snoddy reminisced about his brief experience as a street performer here in L.A., Where he first moved. He used to drum on buckets and he says, “It wasn’t bad. On a good day, I could make around a hundred bucks.”

Snoddy is wearing a Willie Nelson t-shirt with the sleeves removed, while Paris is holding onto him tightly. Her demeanor is more somber today, and she is not speaking much. She has a Rasta-rainbow backpack, a green plaid shirt layered over leggings, and circular-lensed sunglasses. Paris has her hair extensions pulled back into a ponytail.

“Aspirations,” she states. “Hashtag ‘aspirations.'” Paris sighs and tightly holds Snoddy’s hand. Among them are what seem to be a bird pair in love, gliding through the shallow water in near arrangement. “Greetings, companions!” She exclaims. “Join us in playing!” She is thrilled to notice a flock of ducks. “They’re excessively severe and fancy,” she remarks. “It doesn’t shout, ‘Hello, come for dinner!'” We proceed towards the canals, bordered with cutting-edge residences that Paris doesn’t appreciate.

They start to dance as the sun disappears. She turns to her boyfriend and laughs in Paris. She unleashes a dated-sounding trance song, pressing a button on a tiny stereo strapped to her waist, as she grins at the couple. It’s a peaceful moment until a middle-aged woman in neon jogging clothes and knee-length socks appears. We walk back towards the beach to watch the sunset, lifting our spirits as we face the orange-pink spectacle. Snoddy and Paris hop on the concrete barrier.

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